Some People Like Me

hey

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 04:16:31 GMT

i think im gay

Tired, Cranky, Bored, Gloomy

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 07:44:55 GMT

hopefully tomorrow will be better, but its unlikely. though i had an incredible weekend. ill try to make something happen, even though im temporarily phoneless =(

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 16:48:47 GMT

Hi.

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 16:34:42 GMT

i have about 230420 crushes right now.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:33:23 GMT

I'm under the opinion that Stephin Merritt of Magnetic Fields fame is the single best songwriter of love songs of our generation. He captures how nice it can be and how tragic it can be. His diction is sometimes childish and very surface, and at other times he is so incredibly insightful. i can relate to almost every one of his songs.

All My Little Words
You are a splendid butterfly
It is your wings that make you beautiful
And I could make you fly away
But I could never make you stay
You said you were in love with me
Both of us know that that's impossible
And I could make you rue the day
But I could never make you stay

Not for all the tea in China
Not if I could sing like a bird
Not for all North Carolina
Not for all my little words
Not if I could write for you
The sweetest song you ever heard
It doesn't matter what I'll do
Not for all my little words

Now that you've made me want to die
You tell me that you're unboyfriendable
And I could make you pay and pay
But I could never make you stay

The One You Really Love
I do believe our love's in danger I might aas well be loving air
You look at me like I'm a stranger You look at me like I'm not there
I gaze into your eyes of blue but their beauty is not for mee You're
thinking on someone who's gone You're dreaming of the one you really love
I made you mine, or so it seemed Though he is dead he haunts your dreams
I might as well be two ft. tall You never will love me at all...
You're dreaming of the corpse you really love

I'm Tongue Tied
I'm tongue tied and useless
I'm weak-kneed and brainless
and then
I mumble some jumble
you kiss me
I'm history
I'm tongue-tied and useless again

my heart pounds
I make sounds
my ears hum

my head pops
the shoe drops
I'm struck dumb

I'm tongue-tied and uselss
I'm weak-kneed and brainless
and then
I mumble some jumble
you kiss me
I'm history
I'm tongue-tied
and uselss again

you say things
the room swings
I feel faint

I've no doubt
I'll black out
grand, love aint

I don't die
I say "hi"
how clever

I turn blue
I love you
forever

I'm tongue-tied and useless
I'm weak-kneed and brainless
and then
I mumble some jumble
you kiss me
I'm history
I'm tongue-tied
and useless again
I'm tongue-tied
and uselss again

...lolololololo....

also, i could very well get into a fight really soon.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 06:00:31 GMT

shit is about to hit the fan. both metaphorically and literally.

on the bright side, i saw 16 year old titties and vag last night gyrating on a table.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 18:21:03 GMT

i think im in trouble.

frustration

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 06:17:32 GMT

why are girls so frustrating? isnt it a little weird to be afraid of commitment or something "real" when youre only 19 fucking years old? if everything seems right why not just go with it? who knows how much more i can take.

someone show me your hot friend.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:46:09 GMT

im only angry when im tired. everything is tite 95% of my life.

ready for spring

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 19:00:53 GMT

i've decided that im going to make this the best spring/summer of my life. so im really anxious for it to start. i'm rebelling against the weather and im gonna start wearing only spring-y clothes and hang out outside places a lot. and once everyone is all moved to chicago and back from schools and whatnot, itll make it even better. moving out is gonna be hectic and i have no clue what's actually going on.

josh, if you're not sure if you're moving to chicago, you should let me know yeah? well, itll all get worked out in the end i guess.

funfunfunfun. spring breaks start this week and theres lots of stuff "planned", most of which won't get done. oh well.

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 18:13:51 GMT

Hi.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 02:03:50 GMT

ok, so instead of just adding these to my last entry, ill make a new one.

I GOT A SWEET ASS PACKAGE FROM KIM.

i named the Tomagotchi 'Toshio', after the little boy in Ju-On. I'll show him what love is.

and then i saw this.

so

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 17:03:25 GMT

i had this really long and very updating entry typed out when the window closed =(. so now it will be in a list form

-JOSH, im terribly sorry but this weekend is not going to work. they penciled me in to work on saturday, so aside from today, i work every day from this past sunday til next monday.

-no computer, we're getting a new one and the old one is in my parent's office

-im most likely moving in with Katy very soon

-Hailey, it wasnt what I expected, but i hope you had fun this Saturday regardless.

-i bought a really nice pinstriped suit.

-im making mad money from work, and im getting a 2nd job at a record store.

-i think im going to start writing a book. or like a series or short book or pamphlets or something. the first one will be on Friendship. What it means to be a friend. Why people have friends. The psychological makeup of the friends that you have and why you choose to be friends with them (granted i dont have a degree in stuff like this, but i can make a pretty good character analysis).

-if for any reason someone needs to contact me while i dont have a computer, 773-547-0966 is my cellular telephone number.

such a cool dream

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 14:54:11 GMT

i had a dream last night where i was making out with this girl, and we were being all playful like licking each others faces and crap. and then i rammed my tongue down her throat and she got sick and vomited everywhere. it got in her hair and all over her clothes and it looked like she was going to die. i laughed the entire time. it looked like cottage cheese. then i got up and went to take a shit, and i overheard her talking with her grandma about how, without her knowing, her grandmother was artificially inseminating her. she was going to be a surrogate mother without even knowing! it was such a gooooood dream. its going to make me laugh and giggle and smile the whole day. i just hope most of it comes true.

eff yeah

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 07:27:48 GMT

now that i have things in a proper perspective, i've been having such a good week/life. no expectations of anything or anyone but myself is the way to be. ive bought myself like 8 cds this week and 2 books and the Sealab Season 1 DVD. don't let anyone tell you material posessions can't make you happy, it's a lie. and having a friend with their own apartment is such a neat thing to have too.

CDs:
Kill Me Tomorrow (2 by them)
Lesbians on Ecstacy
The Robocop Krauss
Kitchens and Bathrooms
...And you willi f239ud2n Trail of Dead
Radio 4
new Postal Service EP (whatever bitch, i still like them)
Les Georges Leningrad

wathcing hours and hours of Futurama and crappy horror movies with friends makes for a Grade A weekend.

Good Day

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 08:03:06 GMT

good CD.

good book. the first we are reading for our fancy pretentious book club. its pretty exclusive. this book is about carnies.

a friend and i went to an awesome record store, then a really good book store, then rented Ju-on, pondered the plot line, watched some good old tele, then fell asleep on the couch. a good night. fun is good. goodgoodgood.

Amazing how adaptable i can be

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 06:47:40 GMT

my real friends come through for me when i need them.

hi hello

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 17:13:29 GMT

so i got to go out last night finally. My internet friends are better in most ways to my real friends. And since most of them will be considerably closer soon, maybe ill actually have friends =). We went to a show and got dinner and made fun of our drunken Foster the entire night. Good times, hopefully more to come within the next few months.

no fucking clue

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:15:57 GMT

that about sums everything up

Oh shit yeah

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 07:00:16 GMT

I fixed my journal all by myself. am i the inventor of html? i might be. but anyhow, i went to the usual cafe tonight. and had really good tea. and have a job interview at Panera Bread on Saturday and I hope I get it so i can have delicious bagels and soups and breads all the time. Like this little delight:

GIVE ME HELP

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 16:20:47 GMT

No ones gonna read this, until its probably too late, but i need help with my layout and gay shit like that. because im gay.